Post by chelsea a. de torres on Jul 4, 2010 22:16:58 GMT -8
CHELSEA ANAMARIA DE TORRES .
"don't waste your time, speed up your breathing."
"don't waste your time, speed up your breathing."
- - FULL NAME. Chelsea Anamaria De Torres.
- - AGE & BIRTHDAY. 19 -- May 23.
- - SEXUALITY. Hetero.
- - MEMBER GROUP. University Student.
- - SUB GROUP. Fine Arts Major
- - FACE CLAIM. NONYA.
" Ummm...hellloooo! My name is Chelsea, Chelsea De Torres. The fact that I'm here is... God, it's so incredible. I never thought that I'd actually make it to college. Not because I'm not smart, because...well, I don't mean to brag or anything, because I'm not the most brilliant person in the world but I'm a good student. I apply myself, I work hard. I have an extremely good work ethic, and I'm proud of the work that I do. That's right... I'm an artist. I love to create in all mediums -- pottery, photography, oil paint, pencil... I mainly work in the latter two though. Art is honestly my passion, and that's what I want to do for the rest of my life. For now, I'm a barista at Starbucks, and that's good enough for me at the moment. Because, well, I know things are going to get better. Optimism and I go hand in hand, because life is wayyyy to short to waste dwelling on the negatives. There are so many bright things in life, so many good things that happen along with the bad that it almost makes up for it. Don't get me wrong, I don't push out all of the bad feelings or the bad experiences. I just take things in stride. I have had bad things happen to me, but sometimes in life you have to roll with the punches, you have to learn to continue your life as is. I know that because, well, my mom died last year. She was my only living relative -- well, excluding my dad, but he left us when I was little so I don't really count him as being family. A relative, sure, but he was never there for me like my true family was. My great-aunt and my mom, they raised me, and gave me the values that I have today. And as much as I miss them both -- God bless their souls -- I know that they're in a better place now. And honestly, I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for their support...and I couldn't be here if I had to be back home taking care of them. That doesn't make me a bad person, I just know where I came from and how I got here. I don't let tragedy define my life, I let it affect my life in just the right amount.
Okay...that's making me a little sad, I don't want to talk about my mom anymore. Uhm, lets see. I grew up having the most normal childhood I could. My mom, she always had health problems, so we moved in with her aunt, Millie. I had a lot of friends when I was younger, but I guess I separated myself from them the older I got. I only had a few close friends in high school, because let's face it; I've always been a busy person, trying to hold down a job while taking AP courses and attempting to have a social life. Attempting...being the key word. I'm not complaining though! Upbeat and happy, those are two words that people have always used to describe me. There was one part of my social life that made up for any of the stress that I ever had during that time. I had this amazing boyfriend throughout my senior year of high school, but we parted ways a few months ago. It just wasn't in the stars for us to stay together, and even though it makes me a little sad, I know that it's all for the better. We're still friends -- I can't not be friends with my ex's, because honestly my boyfriends become my best friends. Our relationships are never purely sexual, they're also extremely intense and emotional because I don't have sex with just anyone. I am not one of those girls who feels comfortable sleeping around with people who they aren't in committed relationships with... although I will admit that I have slipped up and slept with... a certain ex after our breakup. Sex to me is special though, and I've only shared it with three different people in my entire life. Then again, I'm not a prude... I don't think that sex should be one of those taboo subjects that people should be afraid to talk about. If you can't discuss it, you shouldn't be having it, that's my opinion.
I do have some strong opinions, but at the same time, I'm not judgmental and I totally accept people who's opinions differ from mine. I also have the habit of trusting everyone no matter what, which has proven to be hurtful, although I can't help it. I've trusted people with my heart who haven't treated it right, but I guess that I strive for love so much that it doesn't matter who it comes from. People have told me that some of my ex boyfriends are complete losers, and I don't really see it... then again, I totally see the good in everyone. It doesn't matter who you are, I will find a reason to like you. I'll find the good in you. I'm a loving person who lives for relationships, friendships and otherwise. I love passion, I feed on it. It gives me muse for my artwork... all of the love that I've experienced is shown through my paintings. I feel like I have to say it again... I love that I can stay friends with people who I'm no longer romantically involved with. It helps that I'm not a jealous person, because I'd rather feel happy for you. I'm not an angry person, although I've been told that I can be a little passive aggressive sometimes. It's really hard for me to work through slight frustrations, because I hate being mad at people. It makes me feel really, really guilty when I think mean thoughts about people, and so when I get jealous or when I don't like someone, sometimes I overcompensate by being too nice or by talking to them too much. I suppose it's just part of my personality... I was brought up to be a nice girl, and it literally pains me when people are bitchy -- whenever I watch movies where there are antagonists who are SO mean that you can't even fathom someone doing that to you, I have to turn it off. It upsets me a lot.
What else should I tell you about? I guess you should know some of the basic things about me, that my friends know. The weird things about me I guess you could say! Umm, well, I'm allergic to pretty much everything. Not really, but, it's quite annoying. Let's see, the list so far is cherries, oranges, eggs, cinnamon, and the big one, peanuts. Oh, I'm also allergic to bees and most laundry detergents, but that's not something I eat so I don't really worry about that too much, haha. I try not to eat at restaurants very often because I never know what they cook with or what touches my food, because even just an exposure to peanuts and I could have an allergic reaction. Peanuts are the one thing that I'm deathly allergic to, the rest just make me extremely sick to my stomach. I carry around an epi pen for the peanuts and the bees, and I stick to familiar brands when it comes to everything else. The cinnamon allergy is quite annoying because I work at an espresso stand, and whenever anyone orders anything with it, I get a little nervous. But I haven't had an allergic reaction since about 8th grade, because in general I'm careful about what I put in my body, and when it comes to things that are unfamiliar I'm extra careful. Oh, another thing... I'm deathly and totally and completely afraid of bugs. Spiders, anything that flies... they freak me out so much, ever since I went on this mission trip to Mexico and got bit by a spider. And the bugs were huge and gave me nightmares, so now whenever I see them I freak out. Blood also freaks me out, mostly just the fake stuff that you see on TV, so I stay clear of crime shows and horror movies. If I see too much of it, I get queasy and faint. It's not awesome, haha.
I suppose the last thing I should end with is that I really love my culture, and I embrace every aspect of it. The traditions, the dances, the music, the food, the morals, the language. I mostly practiced this with my mother, but I still do it on my own sometimes. The only thing I didn't embrace was the religion. I'm not a little Catholic girl, and I don't partake in any religion. I like the messages that they put out -- you know, be nice to everyone, be humble, do good deeds... but the fact that there have been so many wars over religion makes me sick to my stomach. I don't judge people if they are religious though. I don't judge people, period. I think it's an awful practice. That's why I don't make fun of anyone or their actions, and I always look for the good in people. I think a lot more people should take up this belief, although I know it's not likely to happen. Our society has become less and less of a community, but I do my best to keep the morale up. I say hi to people in the hallways, I give money to homeless people. I do good because it makes me feel good. I suppose that isn't totally selfless because it makes me feel awesome and gives me that warm feeling in my tummy, but I do my best. I try to be the best person that I can be in any situation. I hope you like that about me."
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